Grade IV Hot

After this grade my concern really fell away myself as a fixed situation. I can't recall now what it was I specifically addressed. A lot of illusion and distractions seemed to vanish and I felt I was actually involved in magic. And I was off the usual grid. I had a different path. Not part of an army of ants. No,not part of a military of survivors. Just a simple thing with the Scientology and the source selling the knowledge. Scientology stopped being a group thing and came down on to a very personal interest level. This is where it became personal with me and Hubbard. And I thought, if he could reach me, he could reach anyone. I was so wrong. I have not yet met someone else that sees this arena as an exploration of magic. But I came away from the grade 4 with a keen sense of magic and a seventh dynamic, and 8th dynamic view of it all. And feeling anything was possible. Even the impossible, could be possible. I came to believe in magic. And began to see everything in a magical form. I guess looking back at it I stopped seeing myself as an assigned identity and started to think of myself as a potential. This was also the point where I became very interested in Hubbard personally, not his name or credentials or HIS identity, but thinking about and see him as a potential with magic also. I stopped seeing the Scientology as a group social activity but as a line of high magic. I think I moved off the time track I had been embedded in. Because "now" seemed to lose it's significance and the future seemed to hold all of the promise. In my life, everything changed after the grades. I know a lot of people are wowed at the upper levels and I feel sometimes the grades are looked at like Scientology kindergarten . But these processes are powerful magic. Getting through them makes all of the rest a possibility.

On this level I had lots of terrific life improvement wins but when I got towards the end of the Grade IV level my auditor asked me for a very specific item and I couldn't find it... I looked and looked and nothing indicated or was the wrong item and so we repaired it and then we looked again and again and I couldn't find it..... so we just ended session.

After my session I was ridding my fast 1969 twin carburetor Triumph Bonneville Motor cycle at breakneck speeds, as was my wont, and wham! on hairpin turn my item came to me! I had finally competed my grades... on a motor cycle...I went to the examiner and attested! It was one of the happiest days of my life...Grade IV was a level even better than the last level, which seemed like an impossible feat. In fact, I said that about every level of the grades: "the next level could never be as good as the level I just completed!". But, invariably I was always proved wrong. The next level was better.

God gave you opposing thumbs so you could hold onto the cans..... don't waste your time. Do the levels 0 to IV and you will never be the same. I still have all my abilities and it is 40 years later...

I got this at Saint Hill in the mid-70s. The auditor didn't find much to run. I figured there was something wrong with me, especially later when I had gotten more tech training and read all the wow things that were supposed to happen regarding service facsimilies.

Well, to date, I still haven't found much to run in the area, and I don't tend to make others wrong and so forth. Draw your own conclusions. :)