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After this grade my concern really fell away myself as a fixed situation. I can't recall now what it was I specifically addressed. A lot of illusion and distractions seemed to vanish and I felt I was actually involved in magic. And I was off the usual grid. I had a different path. Not part of an army of ants. No,not part of a military of survivors. Just a simple thing with the Scientology and the source selling the knowledge. Scientology stopped being a group thing and came down on to a very personal interest level. This is where it became personal with me and Hubbard. And I thought, if he could reach me, he could reach anyone. I was so wrong. I have not yet met someone else that sees this arena as an exploration of magic. But I came away from the grade 4 with a keen sense of magic and a seventh dynamic, and 8th dynamic view of it all. And feeling anything was possible. Even the impossible, could be possible. I came to believe in magic. And began to see everything in a magical form. I guess looking back at it I stopped seeing myself as an assigned identity and started to think of myself as a potential. This was also the point where I became very interested in Hubbard personally, not his name or credentials or HIS identity, but thinking about and see him as a potential with magic also. I stopped seeing the Scientology as a group social activity but as a line of high magic. I think I moved off the time track I had been embedded in. Because "now" seemed to lose it's significance and the future seemed to hold all of the promise. In my life, everything changed after the grades. I know a lot of people are wowed at the upper levels and I feel sometimes the grades are looked at like Scientology kindergarten . But these processes are powerful magic. Getting through them makes all of the rest a possibility.