This grade more or less validated the grade before it. On this grade I confronted what I should have done, and did not do, because I had a problem with forces. So much charge on this level. A lot of charge in this area for me. All of my life as a child until I was 14 I had been described as "A very obedient child". I was obedient. And that was ruining my life. A short time after I finished this grade I was walking towards a subway and saw some woman laying bleeding on the sidewalk. Some guy was beating her up. He was gone in violence. I walked right up and got in the middle. No problem at all. I calmed down the man by not granting him any beingness. He folded. A few weeks later I surfaced from a subway station in Jamaica Queens only to have a guy about 6"4" stick a butcher knife to my throat. I was carrying a picture frame with glass over a photo. I looked at him and could tell there was "nobody home". His eyes were really glassy. It did not occur to me to think of what I "should not" do. My solutions were about what I "should do". I realized his intentions were to make me be a victim. All I had to do was reverse the flow. I knew he would kill me if I gave up. I jerked away from him and smashed the photo of the glass, edges flew off and I picked up a piece of it. I just reversed the flow. I said, "I've been walking down this street all night long waiting for someone to fuck with me, and here you are." I could see his eyes come into focus and dart around. He was up to some kind of confusion. I actually ended up chasing him down the street. Maybe I went crazy. I could not feel anything but energy. He finally out ran me. I know I could not have saved the life of the woman on the street or my own life had I not finished this grade. That is when the auditing gets REAL and practical right now. So, what can I say? This auditing saved my life and the life of another woman. A short time later, I saw a drug addict walking down Broadway holding a baby with nothing on but diapers in winter. Without a thought I snatched the baby away and closed myself in a phone booth with the baby until the police arrived. What can I say? This auditing turned me into a force to be reckoned with. And it was immediate change spilling right out onto the side walk. Go for it! Turn yourself loose!
This grade more or less validated the grade before it. On this grade I confronted what I should have done, and did not do, because I had a problem with forces. So much charge on this level. A lot of charge in this area for me. All of my life as a child until I was 14 I had been described as "A very obedient child". I was obedient. And that was ruining my life. A short time after I finished this grade I was walking towards a subway and saw some woman laying bleeding on the sidewalk. Some guy was beating her up. He was gone in violence. I walked right up and got in the middle. No problem at all. I calmed down the man by not granting him any beingness. He folded. A few weeks later I surfaced from a subway station in Jamaica Queens only to have a guy about 6"4" stick a butcher knife to my throat. I was carrying a picture frame with glass over a photo. I looked at him and could tell there was "nobody home". His eyes were really glassy. It did not occur to me to think of what I "should not" do. My solutions were about what I "should do". I realized his intentions were to make me be a victim. All I had to do was reverse the flow. I knew he would kill me if I gave up. I jerked away from him and smashed the photo of the glass, edges flew off and I picked up a piece of it. I just reversed the flow. I said, "I've been walking down this street all night long waiting for someone to fuck with me, and here you are." I could see his eyes come into focus and dart around. He was up to some kind of confusion. I actually ended up chasing him down the street. Maybe I went crazy. I could not feel anything but energy. He finally out ran me. I know I could not have saved the life of the woman on the street or my own life had I not finished this grade. That is when the auditing gets REAL and practical right now. So, what can I say? This auditing saved my life and the life of another woman. A short time later, I saw a drug addict walking down Broadway holding a baby with nothing on but diapers in winter. Without a thought I snatched the baby away and closed myself in a phone booth with the baby until the police arrived. What can I say? This auditing turned me into a force to be reckoned with. And it was immediate change spilling right out onto the side walk. Go for it! Turn yourself loose!
Where I stand
I am a...
Independent Scientologist
Pros and Cons (optional)
Pros
Immediate results you can see right in your life.
Cons
You will become a force to be reckoned with. Perhaps NOISY!
Self Analysis (August 1951): Possibly the best introduction to the subjects of Dianetics and Scientology. Self Analysis contains both a series of essays on the basic discoveries Ron had made up to this point in his research as well as an extensive auditing section that a person can do by themselves right at home. The book contains a special version of the Hubbard Chart of Human Evaluation and a series of tests one can do to discover where you're really at. Then, by applying the processes from the second half of the book, one is guided through a path of self-discovery. At the end, you will re-do the tests to confirm your improvement. How good can you get? These techniques have been in use for more than six decades and Ron referred to them again and again throughout his research, stating that the processes here were capable of curing any neurosis.
This is the starting point for anyone wanting auditing. You will be audited by L. Ron Hubbard himself through the pages of this book.
Find a copy in used bookstores or at Alibris.com, Amazon.com, eBay. Or you can buy a new copy from these Church of Scientology organizations (but once you give them your address they may continue to send you junk mail) Bridge Publications or New Era Publications.
